Experienced the Live Jazz Band Performance

"Nothing better than an honest heartfelt compliment."

Corey and co at BLUJAZ, Singapore

December 2016

I never really be somewhere especially to just see live performance until I met this guys. As I remember, this is my first time see Jazz band swinging and jamming live. And it feel so good. I never really come and complimented to fellow musician. I usually shy to reach people, but for this one I just come and ask for permission to put the videos I recorded on Youtube. Because their gig just so so good.

What I really like is I see them enjoy playing the melody. They jamming, looking at each other like they telepathing to decided the next melody. They talking, they laughing together, all seems so right..

They are not a fix band. One of them told me, sometimes just met and jamming. But for me the melody from each music instrument sound so nice together and it just so right. 

I love when they playing and laughing together. And some guest come in front and just dance as crazy as they wanted. I seems so right.. Never though jazz song can made someone dance like that. I need to leave because that time already passed midnight, but I made friends there, and the most important reason is because the good music that I had to stayed for another song, and another, just one more song until they finished.. I really want to join when they asked me to continue enjoying the night, but in the morning I must go back to my country and haven finish packed so sadly I decided to go back to hotel..

For me this band playing so use melodious, mesmerizing, ravishing, captivating, charming, spellbinding, alluring, delightful and soul touching.. I can not not moving my head, my hand and my body because I really felt the melody.. Its just so so so good..

Hoping for another meeting with them..

And the two friends I made that night.. It really great to met them.. Just wondering how did they decide and like to be a friend of mine and will like to have another, another and many more meeting together. And I remember one of them said “It’s difficult now to met someone good, you are a good person”. Also one of them said "You have a lovely energy and spirit!". Well, as me right now, I felt so touch.. But my negative side reminded me, “may be because they haven’t see many side of me, that’s why they can said that..” But seriously, that just me. I can said clearly that is me. The happy, easygoing, enjoy living, friendly me. The me who love to record the moment, take photo, sharing and really love to see and made peoples laugh..

And the last time before I set off back to place I stayed that night, they give me a “see you again” hug. And it felt as ‘I met a family, I met a real friends, I met peoples I can shared happiness with”. And its been almost a month I haven't contact them, but the feeling still the same, I remember them sometimes and wanting to meet them again. Sometimes I easily attach to people I just met and I just hoping that not gonna cared them.. Because all I always hoping is the best for them.. But may be sometimes my way to express it is wrong.. Sorry for that..

For now I just want to share happiness with them. Not every part of my live (for now). The term is like, giving a happy and dispose of waste each have their place.. haha not sure if its the right translation as i meaning it.. in bahasa, ‘istilahnya, memberi bahagia dan membuang sampah masing-masing ada tempatnya’..

Each individual has problems, and I want let them live quietly and comfortably without worrying about "this little not so alive” me..

I tried not to bother them, it’s been almost a month after we met that night and at last 2 days I back to the place we meet, but haven’t seen them so right now I decided to reach one of them.. Hopefully can see them again. I must tell what I have to tell, I just want to be honest and I hope at least they try to listen. At least they know other side of me and not decide to leave me.. Rejected is one thing I always bothered about.. huehehehehe shame of myself lalala. Still trying and learn to be the better me.. Good luck to you, good luck to me.

Here is one of the video, the link click here, and the playlist videos click HERE 

Haven't finish it all, but it until everything become perfect, well it will never be, so, I am trying to accept what I can do for now and did as much as I can do and keep doing it even just little by little hihi.

Anyway for the photos, I'm working it at a new tumblr I will make for posting random photos.. I just need to share it la, can't keep it all by  myself.. need to share good thing.. arghh "it's a little bit funny, this feeling insideeeee~~~" from Moulin Rogue movie

Hope you enjoy the video, especially the music.

God bless you =)

When will I be good enough for you?

What’s wrong?
I just want you to be happy. It is me. Myself who always trying to give and do everything for you. I'm not perfect, I'm far from It. So, what more you expect from me, when I even didn't expect you to be what you won't to be. All I want is you to be comfortable and happy with yourself. But, you've never try to accept me the way I am.

I spend my entire life asking myself. What I did wrong? I the person I like never like me back? Why I never enough for him? 

As a negative person I believe I’m not perfect and of course I did lot of things wrong. but when I will be enough for someone? Someone I love. Someone I give my whole world…

WHEN WILL I BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU?

Then I found this article from Jenny Jusuf tweet..

http://thoughtcatalog.com/kim-quindlen/2015/06/why-youll-never-be-enough-for-him/?utm_content=buffer93b6d&utm_medium=social&utm_source=twitter.com&utm_campaign=buffer

The answer of my questions.. Is.. I’ll never find the answer.. "You are just as you are supposed to be. you are perfect even amongst all of your imperfections. As long as you maintain a thirst for life, a desire to work hard and live truthfully, and willpower to grow and to improve yourself and to try harder every day, you are just as you should be."

hahaha terus ketemu tweet ini yang bikin ketawa geli.. Always make me giggling tiap kali liat witternya Raditya Dika

'Cewek: "Kamu cepetan dong ngurusin kerjaannya!" Cowok: "Kamu jg cepetan dong ngurusin badannya." Kemudian si cowok dicolok high heels..'

Not a sorry if I like to eat, but sorry I too lazy to exercise more.. hihi *cabut high heels dari si cowok*hahaha

Memang dasar sifat manusia adalah ga pernah puas dan menuntut lebih. Lucu waktu ngobrol sama temen2 dan Andrew as spoken said it out loud. Visi & misi dapat istri secantik mungkin, anak sepinter mungkin, rumah sebesar mungkin, mobil sebagus mungkin, makan seenak mungkin, badan sesehat mungkin dan umur sepanjang mungkin. 

When he said that my mind scream, "Man! itu juga yang selalu ada di pikiran gue, man! That's all I want, I want the best of the best for my life. But your words explain it in the best way! like it!" and all agree with what he said. Something will be enough when you said it enough. Cukup Alehandro! Aku lelah hidup denganmu! Ciao bella.. *terbang pake bulu mata palsu*

"This is not meant to be an excuse, this is not to say that you are faultless, this is not to say that you have no responsibility in your relationships. You have to try, you have to compromise, you have to be vulnerable, you have to put the other person in front of yourself. You have to work, you have to be selfless sometimes, you have to acknowledge that you have flaws, that you have made and will continue to make mistakes.

But sometimes, regardless of how hard you try, you find yourself desperately in love with someone who cannot love you back. Someone who refuses to accept you, because it’s easier to make you think something’s wrong with you than it is for them to be vulnerable and human and open to the idea of being hurt." thethoughcatalog.com said.

I take some conclusion here. So, no excuse to not take caring your body. Yang merasa perutnya berlipat-lipat mari diratakan. Terus lakukan dan berikan yang terbaik semampu kita. Ada waktu bekerja, ada waktu beristirahat. Take sometime to think don't keep yelling. And never lose yourself. 

Good night!

Acara Nulis Buku 30 May 2015

Seneng itu ketika buka facebook dan lihat ada acara belajar nulis skrip bareng Jenny Jusuf. I adore Jenny Jusuf for a long time. The more I know her, the more I adore her. She is so clever. Okay, here what I got from the sharing with Nivell Rayda dan Jenny Jusuf.

"NEED ACTION"
Dua kata pertama yang nendang. All you need is action. Yes kelemahan gue adalah kebanyakan mikir dan kurang  aksi. And here they remind me "to start something small and make it big".
Nulis bukan sesuatu yang dimana dalam sehari kita bertapa di Ubud trus tiba-tiba jadilah sebuah buku. Nope, ngga gitu. Nulis itu kaya gym, kita harus latih terus menerus untuk dapat lihat hasilnya.

Dan diingetin untuk jangan takut salah, nanti dari yang ngga sempurna bisa diperbaiki dan belajar dari situ. Butuh kesalahan untuk diperbaiki. Kalo udah merasa sempurna, mari pindah ke kelas lain untuk belajar hal yang lain. Selama hidup akan pernah ada kata berhenti dan cukup untuk belajar dan tahu lebih untuk jadi versi kita yang lebih baik dari diri kita sendiri.

"Mental blog?" ngga salah koq, nulis random aja tiap hari. Karena mungkin banget dari random notes itu kita bisa dapet ide dari situ.
So, udah nulis aja ga usah malu...
Kalo malu tulis di buku dulu aja, jangan langsung pos di sosial media.

Tips nulis: TULIS AJA DULU & TERUS BEREVOLUSI.

Modal sukses seorang Jenny Jusuf adalah NEKAD & BANYAK MAU.
Beliau ini belajar nulis secara otodidak(belajar sendiri) karena menurut dia cara belajarseperti ini punya keuntungan tersendiri. Baca buku, tanya senior-senior, etc. Learning by doing. Sambil belajar sambil ngerjain sesuatu. Hasilnya biar orang yang nilai dan nikmati, kalo ngga nikmat tambahin gula & krimer biar pas ;D

Penulis itu butuh ruang yang cukup untuk berkreasi. Pernah ngerasain dikerjar deadline dan cuma bisa ngerjain sesuatu semampu otak saat itu? Well, mostly kita ngga akan puas dengan hasil kerjaan kerjar mepet.

"SACRIFICE TO GET THE RESULT"

Dari apa yang udah kita kerjakan harus ada HASIL dari situ. PROSESnya harus dinikmati dan ada tahap pemBELAJARan dari situ.

Tulislah apa yang ingin kita baca, kita dengar dan kita sampaikan ke orang lain. Resepnya adalah "don't be afraid to kill your 'darling'"
Jangan takut untuk nulis, PUT YOURSELF INTO WRITING, kecuali untuk dijual.

Berkarya aja, hasilnya nanti gimana dan yang gimana deh... Coba deh nulis untuk diri sendiri, dan yang penting nulis dulu aja..

:)

Thanks to the team NULISBUKU founding team mba Ollie (Aulia Halimatussadiah), Angeline Anthony, Brilliant Yotenega & Oka Pratama. Here's the pictures from that day. 

Ps: Memory card recovery didn't work so well, banyak juga data yang ngga selamat, cuma ini foto-foto yang bisa di recover, harus bersyukur beberapa foto selamat dan yang penting foto yang rame-rame aman :) 

Dare to Lose

Kali ini Pastor lucu yang always positif, fruitful & inilah Pastor yang memotivasi untuk datang dan join di JPCC (((o(*ﾟ▽ﾟ*)o))) Pastor Alvi Radjagukguk!!

Selain sharing tentang Firman Tuhan, ko Alvi (ehem, panggil koko, sksd iich, eaaaa) juga sharing foto2 lucunya yg ada di instagramnya, ketawa deh satu aula hahaha yg mau ngintip klik di sini

Pastor Alvi bagiin kita apa hari ini? Ko Alvi sharing soal "dare to lose" yang artinya berani kehilangan

Mari simak catetannya...

Markus 8:34-36

(34) Lalu Yesus memanggil orang banyak dan murid-murid-Nya dan berkata kepada mereka: "Setiap orang yang mau mengikut Aku, ia harus menyangkal dirinya, memikul salibnya dan mengikut Aku. (35)Karena siapa yang mau menyelamatkan nyawanya, ia akan kehilangan nyawanya; tetapi barangsiapa kehilangan nyawanya karena Aku dan karena Injil, ia akan menyelamatkannya. (36) Apa gunanya seorang memperoleh seluruh dunia, tetapi ia kehilangan nyawanya.

Which mean: Self sacriface is the way, to find the meaning of our live.

Kita menemukan arti hidup kita ketika kita memberikan diri kita untuk orang lain.

Matius 9:17

(17) Begitu pula anggur yang baru tidak diisikan ke dalam kantong kulit yang tua, karena jika demikian kantong itu akan koyak sehingga anggur itu terbuang dan kantong itupun hancur. Tetapi anggur yang baru disimpan orang dalam kantong yang baru pula, dan dengan demikian terpeliharalah kedua-duanya."

Which mean: Tingkat hidup yang lebih tinggi perlu tempat yang lebih luas.

Perbaiki strukturnya agar Tuhan dapat mengalirkan yang lebih baik lagi.

3 sikap/attitude untuk menjadi probadi yang selfless:

1. Available/tersedia

Yesaya 6:8

"Ini aku, utuslah aku!"

God looks for availability beyond ability. 

Tuhan nyari kesediaan kamu, keberadaanmu, kerelaanmu untuk memberikan waktumu untuk Dia, dan itu lebih daripada kemampuan yang ada di diri kita.

"You are not in the driver seat, I AM"

Kita adalah alatnya Tuhan & sejak dikandung, Tuhab sudah menetapkan tujuanNya dalam hidup kita.

Availability bring us closer to our God-given purpose.

Amsal 3:6

(6) Akuilah Dia dalam segala lakumu, maka Ia akan meluruskan jalanmu.

2. Teachable/mau diajar 

Lukas 13:30

(30) Dan sesungguhnya ada orang yang terakhir yang akan menjadi orang yang terdahulu dan ada orang yang terdahulu yang akan menjadi orang yang terakhir."

Mau diajar, lalu belajar dan ditindaklanjuti dengan perubahan.

We are to be life long learners and student of change.

Keep learning. Never stop.

Hati yang mudah diajar membawa kita pada promosi.

Dare yourself to embrace to get the new height.

Tapi jangan o'on2 amat ya.. Mau diajar dan terus belajar bukan berarti kamu bodoh dan otaknya kosong, tapi mau meningkatkan kualitas diri menjadi lebih baik lagi.

3. Love driven/didorong oleh kasih

Yakobus 3:16

(16) Sebab di mana ada iri hati dan mementingkan diri sendiri di situ ada kekacauan dan segala macam perbuatan jahat.

Keputusan untuk mementingkan orang lain sampai harus mengorbankan diri sendiri.

Ego adalah hasrat untuk menguntungkan diri sendiri dan mengorbankan orang lain. So jangan tega-tega ya jadi orang..

1 Korintus 13:8

Love never fails; God is love; God never fails.

Balaslah apapun dengan kasih.

Cinta itu mau berkorban.

1 Korintus 13:7

(7) Ia menutupi segala sesuatu, percaya segala sesuatu, mengharapkan segala sesuatu, sabar menanggung segala sesuatu.

God bless you!

Here some quote from Pastor Alvi: