Here's I have my own live.

When the first time you feel you are alone in this world.

No one's care about you

Alone.

Suffering

No one to hold on

No one to rely on

When you are alone on the dark side

you can't see anything

you can't hear anything

Until there's one thing you realize

You still breathing

you know you still alive

but you feel like you don't

you feel that you're died

The worse YOU FEEL LIKE YOU'RE DESERVE TO DIE

what the hell wrong in this world?

what the hell wrong with you until you feel like that?

something wrong with yourself?

or around you said you was wrong?

or you judge your self that you the worse, all you have did, and you do all wrong.

That what happening with many peoples in this age

what I hear on radio

what I see on TV

what I read from social media

from the website

and

WHAT I FEEL

Many of it talks about someone who want to kill themselves

Young age, middle age, even the oldest one..

seem like they can't afford it…

"I can't survive anymore"

"I was yelling but no one can hear me"

“No power to survive”

“No one left to talk”

dan paling parahnya ketika di saat seperti ini ngga ada yang bisa mengerti..

ngga perlu dimengerti deh..

selama masih ada seseorang yang bersedia menemani dan mendengar isi hati kita disaat-saat kita ngerasa ngga berdaya..

ngga ingin sendiri..

sedikit hiburan atau pun obrolan yang bisa membuat kita melupakan masalah kita untuk sejenak, itu sangat-sangat menolong dan kamu ngga akan tau betapa berartinya kehadiranmu saat itu.

one story from my friend..

a day when she come to play on her cousin house..

moon seems so bright but the sky too dark

it's time to go home she think..

but her cousin ask her to stay..

that time she decided she want to go home.

and she left her cousin..

and that night just a couple hours after she left

she got a call

her cousin on the hospital,

and it's because her hand cuter..

she tried to kill herself

Thank's God her cousin is okay now..

but one thing she regret until now..

if that night she not left her cousin..

it will never be happened,

there's no scar on her skin

REGRET, that what leave..

hanya penyesalan yang tertinggal..

*I feel what she felt that time she's yelling inside

"DON"T LEAVE ME ALONE. I NEED SOMEONE BESIDE ME NOW, THAT'S  

Be aware with you friend around you who need you.

They need you.

I need you.

Thank you for being here for me.